| snapshot of life from my perspective |
[Sep. 29th, 2007|08:16 pm] |
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I need to download for a minute or two so here goes- my life is a bit mental but somehow feels ok right now-strange mish-mash of stuff is going on-
Here is a quick update for you ZACK- ha
I work WAY toooo much-I know this- but right now it is ok-i was just asked to fly to Seattle to speak for 125 people on customer service- (I would rather fly home to ND to see my dad- but sure what the hell i will fly out there on my Sunday off and do it on Monday then take the red-eye back home only to work another solid week of 10+ hour days- I got nothin' else cookin'....so I am going- I do miss training/ public speaking like that and they are putting me up in a suite at the Grand Hyatt in Seattle so that doesn't completely suck- plus I can use the frequent flyer miles to earn a ticket home again- I had a job interview at Polaris Industries- YES they make ATVs and Snowmobiles- so NOT Aveda, but a 6 figure salary wouldn't suck completely and the fatherest I would have to travel would be Wisconsin...a 9-5 job what would I do with myself?? Plus they also make victory motorcycles and getting one of those at cost wouldn't suck either- I realize when it comes to work I can do What I do anywhere- but someday how nice it would be to not be doing it---This time of the year I am placing holiday orders for salons- I feel like I have a calculator glued to my fingers-so that is work...
On the EXCITING front: We have a new family member!
We rescued a new dog! SUMI is a 7 year old Japanese Chin and he is quickly stealing my heart- the most cat-like dog I have ever met- 9 pounds- and he looks like a panda bear and a monkey mated- he makes funny noises and is the sweetest little thing- I drove down to damn near South Dakota to get him, missed the equinox ritual- and spent last weekend helping him adjust- so far pretty good for such a litte guy...Cookie had a surgery Friday and is now home next to me here recovering- on pain meds- she had 9 teeth puled and a tumor removed from her back- this will be her last surgery- I want the rest of her little life to be what it is-as I continue to spoil her rotten- 3 friends have had babies this week- it is in the water i guess- thoughts of motherhood rattle my brain and I resolve myself to working harder and cuddling with the dogs.
My dad got another experimental shot and so is still alive- he is pretty amazing and wants to see his next birthday- he is the original thelemite and says when he wills it he will go and become a star in the sky...we have had many talks about his passing and we are better than ever- Today I am packing, working, potty-training, cleaning, doing laundry, napping, and pondering all of it- my biggest question is:
If this is 'it' am i cool with that?
My answer today: YUP- a king size bed, being held my a man I love, and 3 little dogs who look at me like their God doesn't suck at all. |
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| Saturday...ahhh |
[Sep. 1st, 2007|09:29 am] |
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Get up hang out wit the hounds of love- breakfast and BBC America- surf a little before the Meditation group arrives-shower get ready and head out to "do" an 8 year old's bday party- this time I am doing a LEARN TO PAINT with an art show for 9 -8 year olds- I can't wait -then mass tonight and see everyone -especially the b-day girl Ms Kelly!
FUN DAY ; )
Enjoy all! |
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| a good night for it... |
[Aug. 15th, 2007|08:29 pm] |
today I am in a salon and I swear it was the strangest thing-like watching it- co-incidence??? I dunno-
I am standing in the waiting area- watching an ant cross the floor and I start humming that little kid's song...just what makes that silly old ant- think he can move a rubber tree plant? Anyone knows an ant can't -move a rubber tree plant....I hum it over and over- just daydreaming- (they must think I am cracked) and I think this salon needs a shake-up something exciting needs to happen right now! It was like there was no one else in the room and I was standing in a group-I look up to a shelf that I never noticed before- (I go there all the time and am fairly observant- FYI-) there are 5 candles glass in boxes in a row-about 7 feet up- all I could hear was myself humming- next thing I hear is breaking glass and screaming- and it was as if I was watching it all happen in slow motion the glass was ON THE FLOOR and I was still watching it fall- WHAT THE HELL???
I still have that song stuck in my head...
(and no I did not pick it up- I delagated this time) |
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| notocon comments |
[Aug. 13th, 2007|06:44 pm] |
ok so I don't post often- though I sit at my computer working for far too many hours a day- I think I ought to at least write something more than reviews of a salon's P & L statement- or how to fire someone or placing $10K orders for owners who still do not own a computer- but I digress...
I am back from the big OTO who-ha known as Notocon- aka gather of the Thelemites, add alcohol, stir...and as a sober participant- I was able to people watch, meet my brothers and sisters- flirt shamelessly and have a great time.
This year had it's highs and lows for me-
Lows: being so sick that I missed 2 of the talks that I wanted to see-not fun-I need new guts-
The other low moment was during the mass- I got a bit teared-up as I kept thinking that I was there and not home with my dad- that was hard for me this weekend-
I did my best to be present, and fought my emotions of thinking I could have taken the precious vacation time to go home-
I know - don't call me- I needed a break- I can't work 10+ hours a day and worry- without crashing bigtime-it was good to go-
So the Highs: or the highlight of the highs-
The local group's oasis art show and the toaster-ovens-filled with tiny bits of warm goodness
Seeing familiar faces-hugging-laughing and connecting again
The art exhibit at the Peabody Museum that blew my mind and inspired me soooo much
The day on my own exploring Salem and taking photos-
The giant lobster that I devoured shamelessly on our last night with Robin, Kat and Zack---yummmm
Attending the mass with so many people! I love that energy-
The O Hymen Hymeneaus ritual- that honestly made me giggle everytime someone said it- becasue let's face it I have a gutter mind- immature and silly yes, but loveable all the same-
Seeing the chessey sights with my sweetheart! Can you say Wax museum, witch museum, pirate museum oh boy!
Connecting with people was especially good this trip-
and inviting them to come to Leaping Laughter and visit!
Learning the creme brule was actually on the room service menu and that if I talked nicely to the guy at the tavern he would bring it to me-
Seeing all of the beauty at the formal diner-in tone, face and dress- lovely
The sheer amount of unabashed cleavage-nice
Being told I was hot-
Taking the extra time on the ride to Boston to see the ocean with a super-cute grandpa-esque taxi driver
Lunch with Robin at the airport ; )
So much more in there too-
I had a great time even though I felt like poo
Did I mention that I made a large dent in the retail options of Salem?
I learned this weekend that even in a town known for it's pentacles in the shop-windows- where Harry Potter is likened to a saint- the OTO still stands out in a crowd rather than blends- I don' know about the rest of you- but I find that somehow re-assuring... |
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| CORRECTION |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|10:49 am] |
My classes will be on Wednesdays Oct 11th and Oct 25th- I accidentally listed one as Oct 14th-oops-
Each session is from 6ish to 9ish
I hope that helps to clarify!
Come one come all! |
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[Sep. 21st, 2006|12:19 pm] |
This is a notice about 2 classes that I will be offering at the Thorpe studio in October.(Yes, this is the lodge space)I hope to see you there!
Oct 14th's class is all about earrings- for $20 you will learn about the findings (parts) that go into making them, how to lay them out, pick colors of beads and learn about design layouts. You will make as many pairs as you can in 2 hours! Great this time of the year for gift giving! Or for yourself! Ear wires and posts available in silver and gold!
Oct 25th's class is a basic stringing session: We will talk about how to create necklaces and bracelets-layout/color/components/design-then take our knowledge and put it to work! You will create necklace(s) and bracelet(s) as many as you want to do in the time remaining- (Last time people made a variety of things, depending on bead choice) All materials provided for only $25.
Please contact me at smoe@aveda.com if you are in the Minneapolis area and are interested in attending! Space is limited, RSVO is on a first signed up first served basis! THANKS! |
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| missed bellydancing last night... ; ( |
[Sep. 21st, 2006|09:59 am] |
yesterday afternoon i found out that a good friend at work's son has a brain tumor he is almost 9 yrs old.
it really made to sad and took me back to finding out about my friend Jim-
I felt helpless and rather than get stuck in that place I decided to skip the bellydancing class to make a contribution for Cole.
I went to the craft/fabric store and get materials for a magickal get well blanket to bring to him and I made an 18 by 24 poster of a tiger playing hockey with stars for everyone to sign when they visit him in the hospital- it just felt good when I went ot bed at 11 last night (late for me) to feel like I did at least a little something to contribute.
I missed the bellydancing, but I know there will be more of that- there may not be much more of Cole...
sobering thought-much perspective and much to be thankfull for- |
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| a question for thelemites |
[Sep. 19th, 2006|03:11 pm] |
If you had to create a list of the top 5 values/virtues of a thelemite what would you list?
I need to know for a project I am working on-
oh and AAARRRGGGG (a nod to national talk like a pirate day) |
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| at work and feelin' like a little LJ |
[Aug. 23rd, 2006|12:07 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
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| | cesaria evora | ] |
Today has been amazing so far and hopefully will prove to only get better:
Get up after a HUGE Amazing thunderstorm, air is clean, snuggle with my honey-
Go to my volunteer project before work: CEAP local group that gives backpacks to kids in need-(This year I sponsored 8th graders and DANG they need a lot of stuff! I don't know how people WITH kids afford it- helped to get the distribution set up and talked to some of the about 40 kids already in line to pick up their backpacks at 9am-sooo gratifying to know that I helped at least a little ; )
GO to work late after that work on my latest project for an hour or so wakl over to drop off Wedding jewelry for a friend at work-she loved it- I am so glad! Back to my desk and I get a call to go to the Aveda store here to be used as a practice model for the new fall and winter makeup looks- (NOW I LOOK AND FEEL LIKE A ROCK STAR! HA)
Went and got lunch and studied Spanish for a bit-Drank an ice cold IBC rootbeer out on the patio-drew pictures of buddha/etc to paint for a friend who is moving into a new place-
back at my desk to work on an environmental training program- though my mind is on my job interview tomorow actually- send good energy- this is the second interview and I would love for it to all work out in my favor!
Tonight: Leaving work a bit early- going to get started on my tattoo!! BACK PIECE! YUMMMMMMMY
Then home for my partner's daughter's birthday cake at 9:30---
Life as they say- is full and good....sigh
I am going to finish my |
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| Now what?.. |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|07:48 pm] |
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My thoughts tonight are centering around change-the good kind-
I feel something big is coming and I feel excited about it
Mentally: it feels like I need a challenge-a good old fashioned learning curve would be really nice
Physically: it feels like it is improving, slowly but surely
Socially: it feels ok to open the gates a little more-they have been a bit closed since May actually
Spiritually: i feel like I am missing something-the work is too introspective and I need to do something with other people...
Does anyone else feel this change coming?- |
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| The day(s) after... |
[May. 21st, 2006|09:07 am] |
Mood: MUCH better than a few days ago-
Reason: Art-a -whirl has gone swimmingly-
In 2 days I have sold 727$ worth of 'cheap and cheerfull' art- 20% goe sto the lodge! Math anyone?
Plus I have met some really cool people and had some fun conversations- It has done alot to take my mind of the other day ; )
After talking to a few friends I feel better about what to do if it happens again- he will deffinately be going to jail- as one friend put it I gave him one get out of jail free card- he doesn't get another one.
Turns out that my friend Doug sold 2 paintings too (one of them john bought for me! yea) so he made about 1000$ in the show- more mobey for the lodge! This could turn out to be a nice fundraiser for the Lodge.
Scooter:
Sorry I didn't make it to the party-but i can help you move if you need any help-
Thanks to everyone for the support- it means a ton.
HUGS |
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| Don't mess with me kind of day... |
[May. 19th, 2006|12:07 pm] |
Ok so tonight is Art-a-whirl, yesterday I was totally excited, couldn't wait-today or should I say after last night I feel like I want to break things-I am angry here is the story:
Last night at 2 am my dog woke me up- I thought he had to go out, but he didn't- my drunk neighbor was outside my house, yelling, and pulling flowers out of my garden and ripping the vines off my fence- it was totally violent behavior- i yelled down to him to stop it or I would call the cops-
he yelled back- something took over in me and I ran down there in my nighttie without my glasses and grabbed the phone-I ran out the font door and he threw a stick at me- I called the cops and they were here within a few minutes- it was like a TV show-he was so gone he was a mess- I asked him why he was doing it and he said he hated me and I was an ass---(nice) plus many other terms that I would rather not re-live----
Let me re-cap these are the neighbors who have 10, yes 10 pitbulls, the ones that the cops have come over to their house like 5 times in the last year- they are loud they are crazy- the cops came to arrest one of them for an outstanding warrant for something and drew their guns in our yard- NICE again-augh- when they went into the house the dad pitbull protected his owner so they shot it-it is like it is not real and I realized last night I was afraid to live next to them---I realized that after this was all over-nightmare-
So this morning I am tired and pissed, I am no longer scared. I go outside to look at the damage around 11-
it looks like shit- I replant what I can and begin to pick up the mess and just get madder and madder-
I look in the garden and see a big black knife handle sticking out of hte dirt- great...I put it in my jacket and grabbed a handfull of vines and go next door- his girlfriend comes out appologizing I walk past her and knock-I swear the song 'in the ghetto' runs through my head as I look into their house....
He comes to the door still drunk and says he has to go to work- I tell him to come outside I need to talk to him-big guy-missing tooth- you get the idea-
he says he doesn't remember what happened and his girlfriend will pick it up- i tell him I think that is the wrong person to pick it up, but I don't care as long as it looks -I believe I used the word 'pristine' by the tiem I got home- I told him I thought that was fair since I could have sent him to jail-
I explained what happened he started to cry- appologized over and over- I am still pissed and being more pointed than I bet any of you have ever seen me be on my worst day- I told him I was trying to be a good neighbor and I took the knife out of my hoodie- I said i think this is yours- his eyes got big and he said it was- I told him that he used it last night to ruin my garden, cut down my vines and threaten me- before I handed it to him- I looked him in hte eye and said " if anything like this happens again i will press charges, you could be in jail right now and I hope that you get that I didn't do that"
I started to tear up as I told him I think what he did was scarey and I was afraid to live next door to him- he kept appologizing and saying that it wouldn't happen again as I walked away- I turned around and told him I didn't know if I believed that and went back to my yard- that is the short version of what happened-
I guess I just needed to get this out so I can get past it-
It felt really good to assert myself, but in himdsight I am lucky that he didn't hurt me when I went over there...frickin' insane neighbors-
So now I made myself some chicken noodle soup, took a few deep breathes and am going to take another shower- then I am going to get ready for Art a Whirl and have a great night- seriously I loathe this kind of drama-
But I am proud of myself for not rolling over and taking it and for having the integrity to go to him directly and tkae the hight road.
I am giving myself a gold star and if you want to come and drink with me tonight at the studio- PLEASE DO, cuz I really could use a hug too ; )
Thorpe building- unit 12 main floor bu the elevator- music tonight and really cool art ; )
I hope to see you all there.
deep breathe as I listen to the barking of 10 pibulls next door fighting.....sigh |
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[May. 11th, 2006|05:17 pm] |
| You Are The Star | 
You represent the ultimate in truth and purity.
Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others.
You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love.
You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal.
Your fortune:
Your future is looking brighter by the day.
The near future will be a time of both hope and healing.
Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen.
Life is about to get a lot easier and much better! |
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| hmmmm??? |
[May. 11th, 2006|05:12 pm] |
| You are a Believer | 
You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone. |
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[May. 11th, 2006|05:08 pm] |
| You Are Teal Green | 
You are a one of a kind, original person. There's no one even close to being like you.
Expressive and creative, you have a knack for making the impossible possible.
While you are a bit offbeat, you don't scare people away with your quirks.
Your warm personality nicely counteracts and strange habits you may have. |
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| What a week |
[Apr. 27th, 2006|10:14 am] |
New moon- new beginnings-crazy bunch of hospital happenings-thank the stars that everyone has survived it-
In the last week I know of 5 folks who landed in the hospital-that is too many-
Friday I am going to switch gears as much as possible- I have been a machine at work writing this online tuotrial and developing a class plus making jewelry and such for a sale-haven't been out and about much- been a bit of a hermit I think I am adjusting to Spring- I need a break- So Friday morning I am doing a 5K at 7 am, then serving at a pancake breakfast fundraiser and then doing my art/jewelry sale from 11 to 2, then coming home to meet my parents-
It is my ideal kind of day and I can't wait-
The good news- I have lost 12+ pounds and 8 inches so far on LA Weight Loss- it is easy and it is working. Trying to stay possitive today-toooo much to do) |
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| Focus-intensity-results |
[Apr. 17th, 2006|01:07 pm] |
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ok so I am working at home -again- as my office is in transition at work and there are too many interruptions to REALLY accomplish much-
I swear I uaually am so single minded it is hard for me not to get the results that I am looking for-
This weekend I had 3 yards of dirt delivered and for the next 3+ hours I shoveled it like there was no tomorrow and got it all into the flower beds- every muscle on my body ached, but it felt great to accomplish the task-
I am like that- I get an idea in my head and it is like a compulsion- but if the idea doesn't fit or connect it is like pulling teeth with me to get there- so here is where i am today- typing away at the project that was near completion and re-doing work that I had almost finished-due to changes from my leader at work- AGAIN- exasperating sometimes, but I am going with it- it is as if someone brought another huge pile of dirt for me to shovel and didn't let me rest-
That is what my job feels like lately- more and more dirt and less of the feeling of success-don't get me wrong there are things that feed me to keep me going- I love coaching and training people, I am good at what I do, this week I will complete yet again the seemingly miraculous task of holding a meeting for about 400 people that i am in charge of...but all I can think about is my parents coming to visit, new art projects and getting outside-
Is it spring fever????
Maybe.
I am going for a walk |
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| work-smurk |
[Mar. 31st, 2006|05:48 pm] |
so i have been 'working' at home again the last few days-
it has consisted pretty much of me motivating myself to sit here in front of the computer to work straight thru for a few hours and do a days worth of work so i can get to doing something better later-
i got a tattoo, took a few wonderful hot baths, read my book, wrote a resume for my mom, took the dogs to the vet, did the laundry, made jewelry and gifts for events this weekend, got groceries and actually managed to get 2/3rds of this wretch-ed (sp?) project done.
If I finish it- it means I get a lovely large bonu$ in JULY so I need to do it...it just pisses me off that i want that money-
which leads me to my thought: I ask you all: Wouldn't the world be a better place if we worked off the barter system?
I think so. Money is evil. |
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